Who I am in the social media’s digital self would be a little different than my real life’self. In social media I tend “to try” to make my posting or photos not too inappropiate. After I tried to search my name on Google, I barely see anything inappropiate, for example, how when I put “Nabila Hanifah,” gave me my facebook page and Google’s ( since I logged in ) and a web called My Way. With so much privacy I have been activated, I found that my web pages are more secured, I have to looked at it so hard to find my Twitter posts on the web. While I put “Nabila Nur Hanifah,” (“Nur” is my middle name), I barely found some web sites showing myself and just one or two more photos. I used Facebook app. the most anytime I’m bored or regarding meetings from my organizations (or usually email). Since I kneew that my audience is also with my family members whether they’re my uncles, my aunts, my cousins, and most definitely, my parents and sisters, I tried to make all my photos and posts far away from cussing and had any offensive languages.
As I mentioned in the previous paragraph, I usually went to social media whenever I had a free time to think. I would check posts and pictures on Facebook and Instagram, or videos/snaps from Snapchat, which I honestly know it was a waste of time rather than doing more homework or reading books. “Many of which we are utterly unaware we programmed into them in the first place…” (12) which lead us to be “…marrying our time based bodies and minds to technologies that are biased against time altogether, we end up divorcing ourselves from the ‘rhythms’, ‘cycles’, and ‘continuity’ on which we depend for coherence (12)…because computer code is biased away from continuous time, so too are the program built on it, and the human behaviors those programs encourage” (22). These social media checking while I was bored really affects me regarding my productivity. Social media really made me different in certain ways as I could check more updated news of recent events happening (e.g. the President Debate and the Mass Shooting in Florida) but also made me spent most of my time checking my phone when I’m on a break or have nothing to do.
What I am in different social medias reflected how different I am in each one of them. For example: I knew I have more family audience in Facebook, a little less in Instagram (just cousins), and Twitter (which only my mother surveilled me). I tend to posts pictures less-showing-skins, and anything regarding about engineering life or just nerdy jokes on Facebook. While in Instagram I was not too shy to post a photo when I was wearing a dress, shorts, or tank tops (these were because my parents are a bit worried when I’m wearing clothes that tend to show more skin which on the comparison pictures below).
What I want to be in social media is mostly not to be someone who post somethings too often which-who I am right now still often posted something-and rather just posts something more educational than less about my feelings. I realized I am tired seeing my old Twitter posts since I wrote literally everything I felt whether it was just “Oh, look, I am about to eat a cinnamon roll,” or “I’m so sad that he ignored me when I texted him, why not he didn’t reply, hmmm….” Just for the record, these were me when I was in elementary-to-middle school-phase which it was pretty rare for me to be able to post around nine thousands of tweets, honestly.
(Safe posts in Facebook and Twitter)
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(Photos courtesy of my Intagram which might not too much showing skin for others while it’s pretty too much for rules I’m growing up and also from my parents and religion)